After another day of moderately hard labor moving armchairs, tables, more tables, more armchairs, some chests, fourteen pictures in frames, two with no frames, and two frames with no pictures, mom and I collapsed onto separate green-printed couches and she asked me, out of the blue, "Do you like your job?"
I was kinda surprised so I said, "I don't know."
I don't really talk about what I do. I don't really feel the need to. It's not particularly exciting in most instances and due to confidentiality the funnier stories can't really be posted on the world wide web.
I work in Human Resources for a large non-profit Mental Health Center. I can't make my applicants rich with gratuitous salaries nor do I have the same lining the interior of my pockets. I enjoy meeting new people, I enjoy talking to them on the phone but the constant threat of doing something wrong or saying something wrong or inappropriate tends to stifle me on more than one occasion. I'm learning, slowly, to find the balance between being myself and being a representative for the company but I fear that I may never be able to play the corporate straight man. It's just not me.
But I do like my co-workers and I do like the human aspects of being in human resources, but I'm still not sure if it's what I'm destined to do.
How old were you all when you figured out what you wanted to do with your life? Was it an epiphany at 16? Or a thought that stuck when getting on the bus at age six? Was it something that you had no choice due to parental over-control? Do you yet know what you are meant to do? And do you worry, too, that some of us were not destined to figure it out in this life, that maybe we were put here on earth as human fillers for the world in order to make those of concrete mind and determinate ways to flourish?
As for now, I am still liking my job. I'm not in love with it, but I think I could be. Like an arranged marriage in a far off land, I hope to grow to love it... or to at least never loathe it in the way I did when I was a receptionist at the "Law Firm that shall not be Named."